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Wednesday 10th May, 2023

I really want to start todays post saying life is shit but I won't because to be honest I am kinda controlling the narrative and I am allowing life to try and be shit to me. Thankfully, it isn't 😅

Now I'd like to put this in context. I'm not sure if you know but I'll tell you now. Writing is my baby and I enjoy doing it so much. The issue here is that I have a self destructive habit that makes me not do it even when I want to do it. Some call it laziness, others might call it procrastination.

Regardless of what it is called, I know it is there and I absolutely hate it. I'll tell you more now. This is how it goes. Simply put, I give excuses. When I let laziness sip in, I begin to logicalize my reason for not doing what I have to do. I convince myself that I really don't need to do this now.

It's exactly 46 days since I last posted. When I gave my first excuse was this the plan? NO when I decided that I shouldn't write and do what makes me happy, was it to go 46 days without writing? NO So why?

I guess I must just be an ass or maybe I don't like myself as much as I thought I did.

Anyway, these are snippets of some of the posts I should have posted a long time ago.

TITLE: Electionz- The Nigerian Way

26th February, 2023

Chaos!!!!

Unruliness!!!!

Destruction!!!

Unrest!!!

Rigging!!!

Unpreparedness!!!!

These are but a few words that are common with Elections in Nigeria. The perfect song for reading this article is an old song from the series Empire titled, Boom boom boom boom! https://open.spotify.com/track/4ouYzxOONjBNoEhZc3fKKe?si=uOQ_s7sCTuOj6WBhEKqLtQ

The anxiety that came with this election almost gave me  a sleepless night. I found myself awake at about 3am. It is not so unusual but considering my eyes were closed and I was in my bed, it became unusual.

Anyway, I woke up at 8am stoked and exited to go and vote for the first time. I find that I am doing a lot of first. Anyway, i'm here and it's clear that they are very unprepared for this

TITLE: Timely

Monday, 27th March, 2023 (10:38)

I remember saying previously how difficult it was for me to decide on what to write here. One of the most important thing about these blog posts is that there should be at least some food for thought for you. There has to be something for you to think about even if it is just for a moment after reading it. Who knows, it might even be longer than that.

So sometime in February I started a personal journey. That is the journey of self discipline. To be honest, it has been shit. It’s not been all bad because  i was off to a great start and boom everything shook.

I feel like giving excuses  for them but stilll…

Friday 31st March, 2023 (08:31)

Monday was the day I was supposed to upload and I totally fucked up. Yesss I did. I refused to write when I should have and by the time I was ready to write my incomplete post had been updated.

I want to feel terrible about it but I just can’t😂 it’s feels like it’s something I shouldn’t worry about. Anyway, my royal fuck up was that I had previously timed the draft for posting. Then Airtel decided that I won’t be allowed access because my network was not activated. Because of that, I could not add what I had written to add to it. I almost feel bad but I don’t.

Now, what’s the object of my feeling bad? I feel like I’m not writing this as I ought to write it. I don’t even think I have the heart to edit it as I should. My heart will probably break with this. My head is not even settled.

Unto other things, I found out or better still, I am realizing that my life isn’t as interesting as I assumed it would be that I decided that I would be uploading 3 times a week. It’s waaaaaay too close. Soooooo from now on I think Fridays should suffice. A week should be enough for at least one thing  to happen in my life that I can pick from to write about.

Let’s come back to talk about Nigeria. Our Dearest President Elect has promised to fulfill the promises he made to us during his campaign. In as much as I’d love to write exactly what his promises were, I’d just put a link at the end of the blog so that you can read it for yourself.

So, I just realized that I fucked up again. The initial part of the blog that I scheduled to post has been deleted. I deleted it myself and now I can’t find it. I can’t possibly remember what exactly I wrote there. Well, I can remember but stillllllllllll. Ugh!

This is not how I planned for this post to go on. Anyway, it’s finally my turn on this Atm queue I’ve been on since I started writing todays content.

Saturday 1st April, 2023 (14:31)

My initial post...

As you can see, I never even got to finish the first statement of My next thought. Anyway God Dey. I want to make promises that I know I won't fulfil so I guess I won't do that to myself. Or to you.

CHILDREN, DONT PROCRASTINATE. It's bad for your work life and very importantly, YOUR PERSONAL LIFE

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